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Finding inspiration

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, May 17, 2016, In : Art 

This weekend I found inspiration – in friends, in work and in art. It has been a long time since I have written anything on this blog. At the beginning of the year, I decided that in 2016 I was going to return to some semblance of work/life balance. It was two years into my job as executive director at Baltimore Clayworks and it seemed like if I never made it a goal it would never happen. The fact that I found inspiration in so many things this weekend and that I have time to sit h...


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Leveraging Political Power as Artists

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, January 10, 2016, In : Politics 

“BALTIMORE’S CREATIVE COMMUNITIES ARE COMING TOGETHER TO INCREASE ACCESS TO AND SUPPORT FOR THE ARTS, CULTURE AND THE HUMANITIES IN BALTIMORE CITY. SHARE YOUR TOP PRIORITIES, GET INFORMED ON THE MAYORAL CANDIDATES, AND VOTE IN THE PRIMARY ELECTION ON APRIL 26, 2016.” - Citizen Artist Baltimore

On January 5, I had the privilege of attending the first listening session of Citizen Artist Baltimore, an initiative looking at motivating artists to get out and vote and leverage their ...


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Fists in the Air: Creed

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, November 30, 2015, In : Film 

I am grateful to have spent some of my holiday weekend in the theater watching the film Creed. It floored me. I expected the exciting build up of a young boxer fighting for more than just a win. I was excited that Ryan Coogler was directing and Michael B. Jordan starring. The impact of Fruitvale Station has stayed with me and I know that both would bring their skills and genius to this film. It is a beautiful film. It is a powerful film. It is a film that addresses more than just box...


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A Question for Andrew W. K.

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, September 5, 2014, In : Art 
I attended the first talk in the season of The Contemporary's CoHosts Speaker Series last night. In collaboration with Current Gallery, Andrew W. K. was brought to Baltimore to speak at Baltimore School for the Arts. I did not know much about Andrew W.K. I remember seeing the photo of him with a bloody nose at a gallery in New York years ago, but did not have much other context. Another person in attendance thought he was on the Real World, it turns out he did have a show on MTV. I decided th...
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Inspiration

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, July 13, 2014, In : Love 
Thinking this morning about inspiration. I came across this Maya Angelou quote (thank you Nona who posted it to Facebook):

"My wish for you is that you continue. Continue to be who and how you are, to astonish a mean world with your acts of kindness. Continue to allow humor to lighten the burden of your tender heart."

And in this I found the inspiration to write this post. In these words, I found the love needed to open my heart and record words on the page. It is funny how great an impact a fe...
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Four Years

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, March 12, 2014, In : Gratitude 
Wow! It has just occurred to me that I have been writing this blog for four years.

Time, which has seemed both condensed and expanded recently never ceases to amaze me.

Four years blogging, in two weeks thirty three years living.

All I can say now, is thank you to all of you that have been a part of it.



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On Tim Wise

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, January 12, 2014, In : Responsibility 

Recently at dinner a friend asked what I thought of Tim Wise. I knew he had gotten into trouble for his reaction to critics who questioned his speaking at a Teach for America event. The arguments he made pretty much sounded like he was saying, I'm on your side so I can do what I want.

After this dinner, another friend shared this: http://www.blackgirldangerous.org/2013/09/no-more-allies/, a Black Girl Dangerous blog from September which mentions Tim Wise in an argument about "allies"...


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Gratitude

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, November 8, 2013, In : Gratitude 
As I venture into a new opportunity and my next big endeavor, I find it necessary to pause and give a moment of thanks. This gratitude must be shared for it is the love and support I have felt over the past several weeks (and before) that has made the next step in my life's journey one that I am confident in taking. It reminds me that anything is possible when we work together. I feel extremely lucky to be in such an amazing city, full of people working hard to make it even better and that re...
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Skipping the Hardest Part

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, September 11, 2013, In : Literature 
This past weekend I finished reading a book by Thea Goodman, The Sunshine When She's Gone. I came across this book while perusing the new releases at the library. It is about a young couple living in New York with a new baby. Clara, the baby, has slept through the night for the first time in her short life and her father John decides to take her to the diner down the street for breakfast so that her mother may sleep in. The diner is closed and instead of returning home John heads to JFK airpo...
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Fruitvale Station and the Voice of Oscar Grant

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, August 8, 2013,
One of the greatest successes of an artist is to provide a platform for voice, especially if that voice has been suppressed, oppressed or silenced. In Fruitvale Station this is exactly what Ryan Coogler accomplishes. In the first moments of the film, the audience is confronted with cell phone footage of Oscar Grant being shot. Silenced. And yet from the darkness of the screen we hear his voice, discussing his new year's resolutions with his girlfriend Sophina. From the darkness of the moment ...

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A Continuing Conversation: Artists and Gentrification

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, July 21, 2013, In : Responsibility 

I have been in an ongoing discussion about artists and gentrification. Part of this discussion has stemmed from a piece of artwork by Olivia Robinson Are You There Lord Baltimore? It's Me Olivia Robinson, Citizen Journalist investigating many of the artist-centered developments happening in Station North an Arts and Entertainment District in Baltimore. The piece was on view in an exhibition I curated, Baltimore From Many Perspectives at D center Baltimore from June 15th - July 21st. ...


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A Place Within Community

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, May 18, 2013, In : Personal Experience 
"For the people with beautiful ideas, a place within community." This was the title of my graduate school reflection project written after my first six weeks in Baltimore (six years ago). It comes to mind now, after a busy week full of courageous people implementing beautiful ideas and working together to create positive change within the city. It inspires me to write this morning and pay homage to all those that made an impact this week.

I started off at 9am on Monday morning at the Mind Your...
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Articulating Why

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, April 16, 2013, In : Art 
Working on a video to launch a kickstarter to fund the next exhibition I am curating that will open in June. My dear friend who often doubles as my editor after viewing it said, “I know what you are going to do, I know how you are going to do it, but why is it important?” I often end up here, thinking that the why is obvious and that people who are not me will understand why I do what I do. I forget sometimes that most everyone does not think like I do. 

The exhibition is about connections...

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On Text Messages and Communication

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, March 16, 2013, In : Communication 
OR Has Technology Really Improved Whether or Not we Understand Each Other?

I try not to have conversations via text message. I find text messages useful to confirm a meeting place and time, to let someone know you got home all right and to let someone know you are thinking about them. The moment however when circumstances create a more complex interaction, a meeting that is difficult to coordinate, a discussion about values, an expression of feelings I find text messages often further complica...

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The Man in the High Castle

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, March 6, 2013, In : Literature 
I just completed reading the Philip K. Dick novel, The Man in the High Castle. I am left perplexed. The book tells the story of an alternate universe in which Germany, Japan and Italy win World War II and have segmented the globe. Slavery and racism are prevalent. The Nazis still hold power and a book, which tells the story of an alternate reality in which the United States wins the war is banned. The book follows a handful of characters as they travel through this alternate universe. 

What I ...

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Respect for the Spoken Word

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, March 3, 2013, In : Art 
This post is for all those who instead of putting words on the page, speak them. I have much love and respect for all those that do.

speaking words that flow from the soul
into the air, away they go
reflecting sounds ebb and flow
a natural order set forth
artfully sewn

weaving rhythms
words build, stream and roll
revelations unfolding
stories told
the ears perceive, the mind knows

each word a piece
a sign 
the goal

remembered rapture
the senses hone
the meaning, the beginning
the end unknown

and so is revealed...

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Something about Development

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, February 26, 2013, In : Work 

Let's first look at the definition.

development |diˈveləpmənt|

noun

1 the process of developing or being developed: she traces the development of the novel | the development of less invasive treatment.

a specified state of growth or advancement: the wings attain their full development several hours after birth.

a new and refined product or idea: the latest developments in information technology.

an event constituting a new stage in a changing situation: I don't think t...


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Creative Time

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, December 13, 2012, In : Creativity 
Being introduced this afternoon by a co-worker as an avid blogger reminded me that it has been too long since my last post. Life is busy currently. A new job keeps my nose to the grindstone, I will be moving again in the new year and as always the holiday bustle only adds to the list of things to do. And yet in this time of plenty of things to fill my time, I am reminded of something I often say, that one has time for what one makes time for and so I am making time tonight to put these words ...
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Red Flags

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, November 5, 2012, In : Art 

Red Flags, a production of the Baltimore Performance Kitchen at the Arena Players had its final performance on Sunday. I was able to attend and woke the next morning still thinking about the experience. The show included music, dance, spoken word, video and audience engagement that brought the viewers into the creation and conclusion of the event. The production, a collaboration by Bashi Rose, LOVE the poet and Vincent Thomas was commissioned by the Baltimore Performance Kitchen, ...


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Autumn Days

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, October 28, 2012,

I think I write every year about how much I like Autumn. Here is this year's post in honor of my favorite season and time of year. I am on a train to New York City, all the trees are yellow orange, except the ones that are red and we just passed by an impressive sculpture of a man on a horse with wings and flags. The air is crisp, the sky is beautiful whether perfectly blue or low and grey. Today it has been both.

It is a time of year for new beginnings, for transformations. A time t...


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Questions on Attention and Care

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, October 1, 2012, In : Responsibility 
I attended We Are Many: Reflections on Movement Strategy from Occupation to Liberation, a panel discussion about a book of the same title moderated by Mike McGuire, with co-editor Kate Khatib. The panel featured contributors Lester Spence, John Duda, and Ryan Harvey as well as one other speaker whose name I did not catch. The book is a collection of reflections on the Occupy Movement. I have not had the opportunity to pick up the book yet, but the discussion that this panel sparked gave rise ...
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About People

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, September 3, 2012, In : Work 
It has been too long since my last post and many things have built up to write about. Here is an attempt to make sense of my recent seemingly interconnected thoughts and ideas. I have been reading The Answer to How is Yes by Peter Block and came across an article titled Why Employee Well-Being Matters. Both of these readings seem to support the idea that work really is about people and that when people are happy (oneself included) then good, meaningful and engaging work happens. It is in the ...
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Being Open to Baltimore

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, August 4, 2012, In : Communication 
I thought a lot about the similarities and differences between New York and Baltimore when I first moved here. Last week, after meeting someone who recently relocated from New York who had a very different reaction to the new city than I did, I am left considering Baltimore again. Reflecting on the place, people, communities, myself and the transformation I have experienced while being here I write this post.

The person that I met did not like Baltimore at all. The friends I was with said that...
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Creative Support

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, July 29, 2012, In : Love 
I know that I have written in the past about support being a crucial ingredient for successful community arts projects. Today I find myself again thinking about support and how it is key in so much more.

In considering what makes people choose creative over destructive decisions, I realize the role of support. Whether it is in becoming one's true self, creating beautiful objects and experiences or finding creative solutions to problems, it is having someone to listen, be there for you and acce...
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Realizing Potential

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, July 26, 2012, In : Education 
Thinking about potential today, what encourages people to reach their full potential, how to structure accountability so that people will be active in realizing their potential and what things discourage potential. It somehow reminds me of the 11 people who came together in my graduate program. There was something special in the little over a year I spent with the others in my class. We somehow became coherent as a group, working separately, but connectedly toward social justice and realizing...
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Beasts of the Southern Wild

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, July 15, 2012, In : Entertainment 
The Beasts of the Southern Wild was not the movie I expected it to be. I thought it would be an adventure film, full of wonder and challenge and incredibly unrealistic accomplishments by a young girl that would leave viewers feeling that their life had been affirmed. It was not just a fluff feel good film however, it was a statement, a commentary, a critical look at the world as it is and I am not at all disappointed by this. Leaving the movie theater, my feelings were intense and I had a fie...
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Evaluating Youth Success - You Know It When You See It

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, July 13, 2012, In : Youth 
Tonight I attended the OSI Baltimore event How One Program is Keeping Kids in the Community and Out of the Justice System. The event was held at Taharka Brothers Ice Cream Factory. LaMar Davis, Director of The Choice Program was speaking with several of his students. It was a nice event. Food was provided by the Dogwood Restaurant, there was ice cream, of course and a good crowd. 

The beginning of the evening allowed folks to mingle and interact and there were lots of great people to talk to. ...
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Clarity, Refusal, Irony, and Obstinacy

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, June 18, 2012,
"Rules of Engagement" a piece written by Albert Camus in 1939 is featured in the July 2012 issue of Harper's Magazine. The words at the time of writing were censored by the French authorities and were published for the first time in Le Monde this March. It is uncanny how accurate the words still seem today.

The piece is about freedom of the press and how necessary it is to winning a war. It also addresses the limits of freedom, but the fact that these limits must be "freely acknowledged, not i...
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A Structure for Hope

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, June 2, 2012, In : Love 

Struggling to make sense of life. Why we are here. Why our paths cross, why sometimes this is joyful and sometimes sad. Figuring out how to cause the least amount of pain possible. Not causing pain being impossible. We say hello and goodbye. How are you? As long as we care, are we are doing all right? Or is it more about being careful? Not about being fearful, but proceeding with care.

All this has something to do with a quote that I have had in mind often as of late from the book Be...


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Dialogue with the Author - Leadership and Self-Deception

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, May 22, 2012, In : Power 
After I posted about Leadership and Self-Deception I was contacted by a representative of The Arbinger Institute, the author of the book. We had the following dialogue via e-mail. If you have any thoughts about the book, the ability of addressing people as people or power dynamics, please comment and add to the dialogue!

 
Mike Rener of the Arbinger Institute wrote the following:

As you are right that we have a power within us, I would just flip it and in that we have the power to act on a choic...


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Open mic

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, May 17, 2012, In : Power 
This poem could potentially be the first poem I perform at an open mic, if I ever build enough courage and find the right venue:

Trying to engage power
In a conversation
It doesn't want to hear
Because abusive power
Is ugly
And looking at the reflection
Of ugly use of power
Hurts

But it hurts less
Then continuing on
An unreflective path
A disconnected life

It hurts less 
Than becoming an island
Alone

Ugly abusive use of power
Pushes everyone away
When you stand alone
Lonely
What choice will you make?

In a world o...
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Leadership and Self-Deception

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, May 12, 2012, In : Power 
I recently read a book titled Leadership and Self-Deception by the Arbinger InstituteThe preface of the book began with a metaphor about a baby crawling backwards under a piece of furniture and getting stuck. Everything the baby tries to do only manages to get it even more stuck. With its mounting frustration were the baby able to articulate its problem, it would say the furniture is the problem, not the fact that it is its own lack of vision that is preventing the baby from seeing how to a...
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Critical Mass/Baltimore Bike Party

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, April 29, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
On Friday night I rode in the monthly Baltimore Bike Party. The Bike Party, formerly Critical Mass goes on a group ride the last Friday of every month. I went along this month because it was a good friend's birthday and it was what she wanted to do. I will admit, I was a little skeptical. When I lived in New York, I respected the Critical Mass rides, although never participated in them. I was never confident enough to ride my bike much in NYC, but I supported the idea of a traffic slowing gro...
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Choices, Changes and Encouragement

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, April 1, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
What has to happen for us to make the choices that are what we need, want and make us our best possible selves?

I have been riding my bike as primary means of transportation for two weeks now. Somehow it is something that I have always wanted to do and I am feeling really good about my decision. The fact that my car had to break down for me to make this decision has me considering doing things out of necessity versus doing things by choice. I started riding my bike because my car broke down an...
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Bicycling Baltimore

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 23, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
In my first week as a biker in Baltimore I rode my bike to work two and a half days out of six (making the assumption that I ride tomorrow). I have realized several things in this time. The first is that if I am really going to live without a car, I am going to need a better bike. I knew my bike wasn't great, but after borrowing a friend's bike, which I have been told is also not a great bike and thinking it was the best bike I ever rode, I now know that in order to make biking my primary mea...
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How to Speak Truth to Power

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, March 7, 2012, In : Power 
I had a realization recently that someone who had power over me was willing to use that power over me, rather than with me. It is my belief that power used with all involved produces much better results than power used over, which produces unhappiness and pain. In the circumstance that I was in, it definitely did not feel good. I try to be honest with people, to tell them truthfully what I see and feel and understand from my perspective regardless of who they are in my life. This may get me i...
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Thoughts About Openings

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, March 4, 2012, In : Art 
Last night the show I curated Women: an Exhibition opened at D center @MAP. It was fantastic. There are moments in life when things happen as one has envisioned them and it is magic. Last night was one of those nights. I know I am always partial to the artists that I curate into my exhibitions. I love them and their work. The ones that I know personally are amazing people and the ones that I don't know are just as incredible. Curating and hanging shows is one of the most enjoyable and satisfy...
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There Is A Self That Must Be Listened To

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, February 25, 2012, In : Responsibility 
More inspiration from Warren Bennis. I will wax poetic on these thoughts and ideas that are taking root, growing in shape and providing inspiration as I read his words. It is about learning. "Learn what it takes to learn what you should learn - and learn it." These are the words of Aurelio Peccei. The urgency in the notes that I have written as I read confirms that this is something that I must and have and am learning. Always in a state of being open to those things that I need to become, to...
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On Reinventing Oneself

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, February 24, 2012, In : Leadership 
I am reading Warren Bennis' book On Becoming a Leader. Bennis is extremely astute and insightful on people, why they do what they do and what it really takes to be a good leader. It has me thinking and excited. One of Bennis' ideas is that in order to be a leader one has to be oneself, really oneself. Not the construction of identity that happens when one allows oneself to be effected by one's environment (family, friends, culture, society, etc.). He says that people who are able to reinvent ...
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Practicing Patience

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, February 11, 2012, In : Responsibility 
Patience is something that I have not always found easy to maintain in my life. I tend to be a little impulsive, a little restless and have a hard time waiting. I have realized though that maybe the old adage is true and good things come to those who wait, but not those who wait and do nothing. Things will not happen if one does nothing, but if one knows what one wants and is willing to be open and honest about these things then eventually all the pieces seem to fall into place. I am not sayi...
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MD Arts Day

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, February 9, 2012, In : Art 
Today I drove to Annapolis and attended MD Arts Day organized by Maryland Citizens for the Arts. I didn't know what to expect having never attended before. What I found was a day full of people that LOVE what they do and care about promoting and sustaining creativity in the world. It was an inspiring day and made me feel that it is possible to work within the world as it exists AND move toward the world as it could be, a world where equity, care, empathy, compassion and love are the values th...
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I Am My Father's Daughter

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, January 31, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
The fact that I am my father's daughter has never been questioned. I have always looked enough like him for people to say I took after him and my sister my mom. This year, however, I was given the opportunity to prove this fact in a different way. I sat on my very first jury. My father loves jury duty and I have to say, so do I. It is amazing to be a part of the judicial system, to have a front row seat to a trial and see in it all the complications and conflicts of our law and all of the inc...
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The Words Don't Change

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, January 28, 2012, In : Communication 
Sometimes the words don't change, but the meaning does. Several interesting conversations this week about words, the meaning of words, how meaning changes, how reality changes and the connection between all of these things.

Very aware that stating one's mission effects whether or not someone will understand what you are trying to do and whether they will support you. There are values that drive these words though. If the values behind the words change then so does the meaning even if the words...
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At What Are You An Expert?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, January 25, 2012, In : Education 
I facilitated part of a workshop at Baltimore Clayworks this past weekend. I started the session by asking participants what they were an expert at. My stipulation is that everyone is an expert at something. Even youth are experts in their own experience, but more often than not that expertise is ignored, devalued and discredited. I knew that young people were taught not to value their own knowledge, but it surprised me how many of the adults in the room also had an incredibly difficult time ...
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One Thing I Miss About New York

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, January 22, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
New Yorkers know how to deal with snow. With the amount of snow that fell two nights ago, there is no reason that sidewalks should be covered in a solid layer of ice. Not that I should be complaining, the block outside my door is the slickest I have encountered and I have no one to blame but myself. I really don't understand the rest of the city though, unless Baltimore is really where I belong and I fit in so well that I am just one of the many people completely unprepared for any type of wi...
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Coffee Once a Week

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, January 14, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
I like coffee. That said, I am also very sensitive to caffeine. I forget sometimes when I get into the habit of drinking coffee everyday. I was in this habit for most of last year. The year before I had limited my intake and was drinking a lot of decaf. It doesn't taste the same, but it fulfills my desire for coffee without the anxiety of too much caffeine. So at the start of this year I made a resolution to not drink coffee everyday. And so for the last 2 weeks I have been weening myself off...
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Wandering Words (more creatively put together than usual)

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, January 13, 2012, In : Creativity 

A friend shared this video with me yesterday: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7X7sZzSXYs

I think it is beautiful. I also think that the stories of Lydia Davis are beautiful. I don't know what these two things have to do with each other, but I think that it is a good time to appreciate beautiful things. Maybe it is the time of year, the air is crisp and clear. I have found a good routine and am happy in my work, both that which I get paid for and that which I don't.

My words ...


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The Ball Drop in Hampden

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, January 3, 2012, In : Personal Experience 
Happy 2012! Somehow I am always glad when one year ends and a new year begins. I guess I like beginnings. At the same time though, there is something really beautiful about the rituals that we bring the new year in with. I spent this year on 34th Street in Baltimore, it is the block that puts up an amazing array of holiday lights, an entire block that does it. It is incredible. Google "Miracle on 34th Street Baltimore" to see some images of the spectacle, but it will not do it justice. If you...
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Joyous Thanks in the Midst of Holiday Stress

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, December 30, 2011, In : Gratitude 

I had started a blog about failure, but seeing as this is a joyous time of year, I decided to put it on hold until after the holiday season and write something a bit more cheerful. In truth, the holidays stress me, but there are also some beautifully amazing things that happen at this time of year and seeing as it is the end of the year, there are also many things to be grateful for. The things that I am thankful for at the close of 2011 and the beginning of 2012:

  1. All the incredibl...


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Project Idea: 2 Minute Judgement

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, December 2, 2011, In : Art 
I participated in a training through TASI (The After School Institute) at the end of November. One of the activities we did during the training was to write the story of a youth based on a picture on the wall. In groups we had to create an identity, give them names, hobbies, jobs, educations, friends, etc. We pretty much had to make judgements about who they were in 2 minutes based on the single photograph. I really enjoyed the activity, it definitely addressed some stereotypes that the group...
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The Muppets: a Model of Community

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, November 28, 2011, In : Entertainment 
While visiting my family this weekend for Thanksgiving, we went to see the new Muppet movie. I hadn't realized that there was a new Muppet movie coming out until just a couple of weeks ago. I was really excited when I found out about it and even more excited that I got to see it with my entire family. I love my family and I love the Muppets so somehow it seemed right.

My family had mixed reactions to the movie. My dad thought it should have been better, he had secretly been hoping that it woul...

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The Fabric of Stories

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, November 20, 2011, In : Creativity 
"We exist in a fabric of personal stories."

"Who will tell about it?"

These two lines are written in the preface to Spaulding Gray's Sex and Death to the Age 14. I read much Spaulding Gray in high school and college, watched most, if not all of his movies and even had the privilege of seeing him perform live - once in my hometown at the Summer Arts in the Park program and once at Lincoln Center. He is an amazing monologuist and performer and I have a great amount of respect for him and his work...
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People First

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, November 17, 2011, In : Communication 
When working with youth, the conversation often comes up about how to address difference. Whether this be race, gender, class or some other physical or identity issue it is always interesting to consider the moment that someone unknown becomes more than just their appearance and becomes a whole person. Working in African American communities, I am often identified as white, which I am. I have had students say the word white in front of me and then apologize for using the term. I always ask th...
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A Culture of Packaging

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, November 4, 2011, In : Communication 
I was thinking as I ate my breakfast one morning how direct and clear messages on packaging are. This crossed my mind as I looked at my container of salt. On the container it said, "Made By Nature...Packaged By Morton." I wondered about this. I know salt does come from nature and the statement did make me imagine an idyllic image of someone collecting water from the sea, letting it evaporate and then putting the salt in a container to use in their dining room table. I am pretty sure that the ...
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For the Right Person

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, October 4, 2011, In : Responsibility 
It is so funny how we must balance our lives by setting boundaries about what we want, but also being flexible for the right person, place or circumstance. I think of this today as I look for apartments because I was e-mailed by a landlord about a house who in her ad said NO PETS. I replied and told her I had a dog so it was probably not the right match, but she said for the right person and the right dog she would make an exception. It leaves me wondering what makes the "right" person.

I thin...
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Role Playing More than Games

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, October 2, 2011, In : Video Games 
I cannot help but continue to think about video games, the skills one gains while playing them and whether these skills have real life application. I am considering this because I have been playing games, I have been finishing games and I do feel while playing that I am learning something, gaining a new skills and able to reflect on my place in the world, but when I stop I often find myself confused by how all of this knowledge relates to the rest of my life.

In this post, I want to focus spec...
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Oh! The Places You'll Go!

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, September 30, 2011, In : Personal Experience 
"Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!" -Dr. Suess


Today in my after school program at the Creative Alliance we read Dr. Suess' Oh the Places You'll Go! I told my students I picked this book because I am moving. They looked shocked and said, "Where!". I realized they were worried even though I have only known them 3 days and I said, "Don't worry, just across town." It was funny though, I did want to read the book because I felt that even moving c...
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The Questions of Change

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, September 27, 2011, In : Communication 
It occurred to me last week that change is about questions. Transformation of ourselves and the world will only occur through a challenging of the way we are and a consideration of what is possible. At the moment in my life that I began to see that the world should and could be different, I started asking myself questions like: "To change everything where do we begin?" and "What can one do?". I created signs and banners with these questions on them (see http://www.sarahbmccann.com/signs-and-b...
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Back in the Swing of Things

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, September 22, 2011, In : Personal Experience 
On Sunday I returned from vacation. I had never been to Southern California before this trip and it was beautiful. I enjoyed the sun, the beach, all the friends that I saw there and the new people that I met. Part of me felt I could have spent another week on the beach, but I knew that it was time to come home.

The day after I returned to Baltimore I began a training at the Family League. I am working with the Creative Alliance this year facilitating an after school art club as part of their O...
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The Beauty of Teaching

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, July 18, 2011, In : Education 
I have been coordinating summer camp this year so I had not been in the classroom as a teacher until this morning. I have to say, I have missed it. There is something really amazing about teaching. Being the one to set up circumstances so that my students are successful is an amazing role to have. It is making sure students achieve much more than just a completed project, it is making sure they are successful in their relationships with me, with each other, with the materials they are using. ...
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The Space Between

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, July 11, 2011, In : Video Games 
Balance and chaos.
Me and you.
My conscious and subconscious.
Work and play.
Joy and sorrow.

The list could go on. Two things are the inspiration for this post today. The first was attending a community yoga class at Baltimore Yoga Village in Hampden on Friday, the second was completing the video game Outland and a friend's comment on my Facebook post about it.

It seems that whenever I find my way back to yoga the theme of the class always perfectly suits where I am in my life. On Friday at the 4:4...
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Worried Blues

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, June 30, 2011, In : Personal Experience 
One of my campers this week looked like she was about to cry as she walked in. I asked her what was wrong and she told me that sometimes she gets scared before she gets to camp. She started to cry a little so I told her how I used to get scared and cry before going to school, but that my mom would talk to a tree to make me feel better, this made her laugh. 

Sitting here now, Worried Blues by Bob Dylan plays on my i-tunes. It hit me that what he is singing about is exactly what this little girl...
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Contemplating Dodge Ball

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, June 27, 2011, In : Youth 
Last week was the first week of summer camp at Baltimore Clayworks. It was great. It was one of those moments that seemed to have the right people and things in all the right places. And somehow most of the week for me revolved around dodge ball. This seems an unlikely activity for one of my best weeks in recent memory, but somehow I feel like dodge ball was a key element to everything. I remember dodge ball from gym class in elementary school and not in a good light. I remember kids being br...
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Commitment

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, June 10, 2011, In : Responsibility 
"Until one is committed there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness... Whatever you do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now."

This quote is by Derrick Jensen from his book Walking on Water. It has got me thinking about the word commitment and what it means. I feel like the idea of commitment in this society is often viewed as a negative thing, as something that weighs on a person rather than frees them. Many of the defini...
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Our Orbits

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, June 8, 2011, In : Power 
I just finished reading Weight by Jeanette Winterson. I read through the novel in three days, I could not put it down. It is part of a series of books retelling myths and Winterson chose to focus on the myth of Atlas. It is a great read and I highly recommend it. The book is about retelling, about stories, about choices. At some point in the book the narrator states that we are each stuck in orbit between our past and out future. That our future holds just as much weight as our past and most ...
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On Love and Marriage

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, June 5, 2011, In : Love 
What does marriage have to do with love? I know that as an institution, marriage may not have anything to do with love, that it is a way for the systems of society to control how people relate to one another and that at worst it can be a means for people to control each other. For a long time I did not want to get married, I did not know many married people among my peers and it is only recently that I have begun to be invited to the weddings of my friends. It seems now is as good a time as a...
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Reflections After a Week on a Farm

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, June 2, 2011, In : Personal Experience 

The last week of my life has left with me with so much to contemplate and write about, I have the feeling this post will be scattered and may be confusing for those without my experience. My apologies, if you bear with me, as I write more in the coming days, I think there will be many insights after the brief glimpse I had into another existence. I spent a week on a farm in North Carolina and it was such an amazing experience that I am conflicted as I transition back into my life in Baltimore...


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Who Are You? You Are What You Do

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, May 1, 2011, In : Personal Experience 
Last night was the 6th Annual Who Are You? Youth Media Festival Performance Night. The festival, produced by Wide Angle Youth Media, is a month long celebration of the creativity, talents and achievements of Baltimore youth. The festival consists of a visual arts exhibition, benefit, poetry slam and performance night. I have worked for Wide Angle since September as Festival Coordinator, facilitating a group of high school students that plan, create and curate all that goes into the festival. ...
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We Are Missing More Than Money

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, March 27, 2011, In : Education 

In consideration of the 1,600[i] public school supporters from Baltimore who demonstrated in the rain in Annapolis on Thursday, March 11th, 2011 protesting the proposed budget cuts in education spending, I felt it necessary to reflect on the event and how it relates to the state of education. I found myself immediately questioning what effect this demonstration would have on education even if successful in preventing cuts in spending.

It seems that every year in Maryland there are threatened...


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Force Feeding Knowledge at the Cost of What we Know

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, February 25, 2011, In : Education 

Last fall, when I was brainstorming a new project with one of my classes, a student of mine summed up all the ideas that we had and articulated what the project would look like. I said that it sounded right and the rest of the group agreed and I told him he did a really good job in his paraphrasing. He stretched his hands wide and said, “Yes! I am not stupid in one of my classes!” It was an amazing moment and I am glad that he was able to feel this way in my class, but it also made me c...


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The Starting Point Matters

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, February 5, 2011, In : Video Games 

Continuing my contemplation about video games, what I really want to see in a game and how games can be a tool in social justice work. I had a conversation with a friend of mine last night who had read my post about Fable III and had some comments about what I had said. He is a programmer so he knew which parts of my musings were not possible in the fabrication of games. I understand theoretically and very basically how games are put together and know that a game with unlimited choices is i...


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On Playing Fable III

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, January 30, 2011, In : Personal Experience 
I want to start a youth developed video game program in Baltimore. I am also dating a video game designer.  I think that because of these two circumstances, as of late, I have begun playing more video games. My most recent game experience has been playing Fable III. The game has a premise I found interesting, the character that you play as is the sister or brother (depending on your preference) of the king. Early in the game one has to decide whether to save one's love interest or a group of ...
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What Does Trust Look Like?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, January 27, 2011, In : Community Arts 
I had a thought provoking day at work this week. There was an incredible moment of communication, people shared a lot and I appreciated everyone's openness and honesty. In conversation we talked about where we were coming from, the issues that made us angry and brought us to community work and how we would define those problems and intervene. It made me think about how much we have to understand about ourselves in order to do work with others, especially in community, with youth and working t...
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On the Justice of Conflicts

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, January 19, 2011, In : Community Arts 
It is the time of year for staff reviews. One of the questions we were asked was about skills that we would like to develop. I found myself immediately thinking that I wanted to be better skilled at social justice based conflict resolution. I wrote it down as something to talk to my boss about. Then looking at the phrase on the paper I realized that theoretically I knew what the phrase meant, but that tangibly I didn't know what training in this would entail so of course, I googled it. The fi...
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How Do I Believe Your Truth?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, January 11, 2011, In : Communication 
On Saturday I attended the Bay Area Video Coalition (BAVC) Producer's Institute Public Conference.  The conference addressed how the field of documentary has exploded in recent years, taking the nonfiction feature film into new and uncharted territories. Suddenly the art of storytelling and the experience of listening is something interactive. By using tools such as games, virtual worlds, the web, fiction hybrids, video blogs, immersive journalism, interactive mapping, and data visualization ...
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Gratitude for Support

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, January 3, 2011, In : Gratitude 
I missed writing last week because of holiday travels. In 10 days I visited Chicago, Wisconsin, and San Francisco with two stop overs in the Denver airport. It is good to be home. Many things happened over the break, I started reading Molecular Revolution in Brazil, went to a wedding, spent time with family and friends, and explored cities that I am only vaguely familiar with. The time away gave me some clarity and insight to where I am now and where I am going. 

All of those stories and thoug...
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The Power of Words

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, December 21, 2010, In : Communication 
I had many powerful words traveling through my mind tonight. My inspiration came from the students in a poetry class I co-teach that is run by the Youth Dreamers and Wide Angle. The truth and beauty of my students' words amazed me, the power behind them impressed me.  These were words that need to be honored. Words that sometimes come out raw and bare all that the speaker feels. At the moment words like these are spoken authentic communication occurs and all one can do as observer is be grate...
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Feeling Stable

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, December 13, 2010, In : Home 

A friend commented on my post last week about home and how he thought that nothing would feel like his childhood home until he was stable enough to stay somewhere and maybe have a family of his own. That something about the homey feeling of childhood had to do with all of the collected memories of that place that created a solid foundation.

I think that continuity does play a role in the feeling of home. Maybe that is why Baltimore feels like home to me – it is the first place I have liv...


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What Makes A Home?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, December 7, 2010, In : Home 

I am sure that I have written on the idea of home, what home means, what constitutes a home, etc., but again I am preoccupied with the subject. I suppose it has something to do with the holidays, visiting family, being in the house that I grew up in.  I am also again about to move, which might be more the reason.  I have spent much time over the last 5 or so years packing my belongings and moving them to another place and yet I find myself again beginning to go through the things that I own...


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It is About Power

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, December 1, 2010, In : Power 
All of our daily interactions occur on a foundation of power. The dynamic of this power is often habitual and a result of the way that power has been used in our surroundings from birth.  Very rarely is anyone asked to reflect on the way that they are using the power that they have or the way others are using it. Often we feel the effects of how this power is used. Hurt by friends who may cross boundaries in their jokes, frustration with a person of authority for using their power to control,...
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3 Days Writing

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, November 4, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
For those of you who saw the link I posted to 750 words, I have now written a little more than 2,250 words in the last three days. www.750words.com is a website that challenges members to write 750 words each day. A coworker told me about it and I had to try. There is something that I really like about this process. The first day it was hard to get to the last word. I don't think that I had the capacity to really understand how many words 750 was because I had never written with that as the g...
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Can We See Pain?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, October 18, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Things that we do cause others pain. Sometimes this is done on purpose, other times we are unaware. The fact that people are often not honest with each other only adds to the amount of pain given and received. I read, "When You Reach Me" by Rebecca Stead today, in the story the main character Miranda's mother tells her that people wear veils as a way to stay happy. This veil allows them to see only a part of what actually exists in reality, but that sometimes the wind blows this veil and they...
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From Teaching to Talent?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, October 15, 2010, In : Responsibility 
I had a realization after teaching yesterday. My students cast me in their video and I was the first one to be filmed. They had joked about this the week before, but I thought one of them would eventually want to take the part. This week however, when it came to assigning roles, they said that I should be character one. We are making a promotion video for the Who Are You? Youth Media Festival. In the video character one asks, "Who are you?" to different young people and they respond with thei...
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Mixed Messages

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, September 21, 2010, In : Current Events 
A headline I saw on the Baltimore Sun website this week read, "Utah schools bans 'I Heart Boobies' Bracelets". As I scrolled down the Sun's homepage, almost directly under this headline was a photo captioned, "Raven's Eye Candy 2010." The image is of three Ravens cheerleaders, wearing halter tops that frame their cleavage and the center point of the photo is one woman's breasts. I went from reading about the banning of boobie bracelets to an image of a woman's breasts and I could not ignore t...
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When Everything is New

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, September 19, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
New schedule has not afforded me the time to write as often as I would like. Still trying to get used to the new life that I have begun. I have started a new job and moved into a new home. These experiences have brought many new people into my life and have altered, deepened and made more meaningful relationships with others. It is good, fall seems to be the perfect time to begin new things, to renew oneself and reinvent one's life. I'm not one to make new year's resolutions, but if I was I t...
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Being Honest in Jest

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, September 8, 2010, In : Communication 
Is it possible to be impeccable with one's word while joking? This question occurred to me recently and even if it does have an answer, it seems quite complex. Working with youth, I often see the results of jokes that hurt. Even young people that are friends use mean jokes as a means of communication, but I often wonder what kind of relationships this way of relating to each other really create. A good friend and I called each other bitches in middle school and made constant jokes at each oth...
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The Artists of What's Your War? Final Installment

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, September 5, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
Yesterday I repainted the walls at Load of Fun, after I touch up a couple of spots today and return a couple more of the pieces to the artists What's Your War? in physical form will be complete. Today I also finish writing about the artists.

Christina Ralls' piece is a call to action. A statement against fear and the negative effects it has on our lives and relationships. "Fear stops us.  It prevents us from communicating with each other. It scares us into being stagnant and not taking action....
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The Artists of What's Your War? Part 3

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, August 28, 2010, In : Personal Experience 

For those of you who did not have the opportunity to view What's Your War? deinstallation began yesterday so unfortunately, you will not be able to. There are plans to put the show online and I will do this as soon as possible, but until then you will have to be satisfied with my continued review of all of the fantastic artists in the show.

I will start with Christine Stiver, whose flipbook The Blind Mole Rat was a huge hit. People seemed surprised to see a flipbook, but were tickled at the s...


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Healing is a Choice

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, August 26, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
Last week was my final week of summer camp. I had a really great group of students, they were enthusiastic, engaged, and energetic. I had started to get a little burned out from the amount of camps that I had been contracted to teach this summer, but this group made me really excited again about what we were doing together. The camp ran smoothly, students got to know each other and as a group, in the classroom, they worked together really well. We didn't hit a bump until recess the second to ...
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The Artists of What's Your War? Part 2

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, August 14, 2010, In : Personal Experience 

To continue writing on the amazing artists that participated in What’s Your War? I will begin with Sabrina Saneaux. Her painting quickly became a kind of showpiece in the gallery. It is the largest piece in the show, but that is not the only reason it captures one’s attention on entering the space. There is something in the complexity of the work, the way that Saneaux layers her figures, their expressions, and the depth of the painting that draw one into it. At the same time so much ...


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The Artists of What’s Your War? Part 1

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, August 12, 2010, In : Personal Experience 

As co-curator I am probably biased in favor of the artists that are in a show that I curated, but I am so impressed by the talent, creativity, dedication, and beauty of the artists that came together in What's Your War? that I cannot help but comment on how blessed I have been to work with these people and the objects they create.

I put a call to artists out before co-curator Oasa DuVerney and I even knew where the show was going to be held. The first submission we received from Freya Pow...


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The Other Guys Make Me Wish I Saw Any Other Movie

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, August 6, 2010, In : Entertainment 
I have never in my life walked out of a move, until tonight. This is my week off at home and I am having a hard time not working so I decided what I needed tonight was just some purely entertaining entertainment. I wanted to go to the movies and see something light-hearted, funny, a little bit stupid, and enjoyable. I checked the movie listings, decided against all the heavy sounding flicks at the independent cinema and went to see The Other Guys. I watched the preview and laughed and imaged ...
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A $3,000,000 Wedding

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, August 1, 2010, In : Current Events 
Chelsea Clinton got married yesterday. I have nothing against marriage or weddings, they provide a time for a couple to celebrate with family and friends and can be very beautiful and joyous occasions. My issue with this event is that Chelsea Clinton's wedding to banker Mark Mezvinsky cost $3,000,000 with an estimated addition of $2,000,000 in secret service and other security for her father and former politically leaders in attendance.

Paul Craig Roberts writes about the cost of celebrity wed...
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Honor our Children

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, July 21, 2010, In : Youth 
I saw a man reprimanding a young girl today, she must have been about 9 or 10. He said "I am the authority and you had better respect me." and proceeded to lecture her on how she had to respect adults, not give attitude, and about how lucky she was to be attending his program for free because otherwise she would have nothing to do this summer. He then told her that she could not come back to class. She sat on a chair outside the door for the next 4 hours. What had this girl done? She had refu...
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A Puzzle for the Sake of a Puzzle

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, July 16, 2010, In : Entertainment 
An ending that caused the whole theatre to gasp. I will not spoil it by giving any further details, but I must question whether the ending of Inception is just a puzzle for the sake of a puzzle. I suppose this kind of ending could leave one to posit that the movie is up for our interpretation, but is it true? In the creation of a movie, aren't we as viewers trapped in the structure of the director, screenwriter, cinematographer and all others who helped in its fabrication, much as the charact...
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Mates of State at the Ottobar

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, July 15, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
I love when bands tour with other bands that they love and seem to have a genuine good time with. I had the pleasure of attending last night's Mates of State show at the Ottobar. Free Energy opened for them and both bands were great. They also shared a joy throughout the evening that I do not remember from many of the concerts that I have seen in the past, especially when I was living in New York. Maybe I am making a huge jump here, but there is something specific to Baltimore that I find pro...
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Children and Choices

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, July 13, 2010, In : Youth 
Children need choices. They need a structure to these choices, yes, but above all, they need to be able to make decisions about their role and activity in the world. Not having choices results in children feeling powerless and thus acting out, being defiant in order to prove (probably only to themselves) that they do have the ability to control their lives.

As adults, we may not always understand or see the reasoning behind children's choices and I have seen this lead to many adults making fun...
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On Guns

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, July 12, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
I recently had the opportunity to shoot a gun, actually several guns. I wasn't hunting, all I shot were some empty paint cans, but the experience was memorable and worthy of writing. I am glad that at 29, this was my first experience with fire arms, I am not sure that I had the seriousness, respect or confidence necessary prior to this that is needed to use a gun with care. The weight of the gun was what struck me, both in the physical object and in the damage that it could do if accidentally...
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Don't Drive People To Think Less Interesting Thoughts

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, July 12, 2010, In : Creativity 
I have been reading Elizabeth Costello by J.M. Coetzee and it is where today's blog finds its inspiration. Elizabeth Costello is an aging Australian writer. She is at the point in her career where she is invited to lecture at universities, on cruise ships, etc. In one lecture she chooses to speak on the subject of animal rights rather than her novels. She speaks of the experiments performed on apes to see if they can think and reason. Her analysis of an experiment on an ape in which, the ape ...
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Is the Eccentric Genius the Only Genius?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, July 1, 2010, In : Power 
I have written previously on the myth of genius in this society and how it often leads bright, intelligent, creative people to paths of self-destruction, partially because of the media's portrayal of genius as damaged, addicted, and at the fringes of society. A recent conversation about the eccentric genius, has led me again to consider what genius means and whether it necessitates some sort of eccentricity. The conversation ended in the person telling me that I was arguing semantics and mayb...
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The Myth of Self-Control

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, June 30, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Every time I go into Target or some other large store where it seems that one can buy anything, I have the compulsion to buy a snack. It seems that every aisle one walks down, one is bombarded with some sort of food like substance that would most likely taste good, but in no way shape or form is good for you. I was in Target yesterday trying to buy paper towels, but the store is being renovated and I couldn't find them anywhere. I was hungry, having come straight from work and I did want a sn...
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The Only Question is: What Can I Do?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, June 21, 2010, In : Responsibility 

The title of today's blog is taken from a book by Walter Mosley called "The Right Mistake." The point in the story where I found the title is one in which Socrates Fortlow, a sixty-year-old ex-con has decided to start a school and has gathered a group of people around a table for food and then an intense discussion. Socrates gathers local people of all races and social statuses and then asks them to think about what they can do. He acknowledges that the world is messed up and that most of the...


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Can We Be Unique Without Needing to be Special?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, June 17, 2010, In : Power 
Is it human to want to prove that one is better than someone else? Or does this priority come out of living in society? Or living in a society where power is not equal?

I am teaching summer camp this week and yesterday my students asked me to tell the tale of the "Emperor's New Clothes". My version was definitely not exactly what I had been told as a little girl, but it was close. The story came near to some thoughts of my own about being unique versus the need to be special.

I want to differen...
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Awareness of Words

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, June 9, 2010, In : Communication 
If one does not pay attention to the words that one uses then it becomes very easy to isolate oneself (even if not alone, then within one group of people whom all speak the same). The most extreme case of this is in speaking another language than those that surround you, but communication of another sort is always possible, but some will immediately dismiss a person for speaking that which they do not understand. I am thinking more about language that is understood, but easily drives people a...
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Living in Emergency

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, June 8, 2010, In : Responsibility 
I saw Living in Emergency: Stories of Doctor's Without Borders while in New York this past weekend. The film follows four volunteer doctors during a tour with MSF (Médecines Sans Frontières/Doctors Without Borders). This wasn't a film about MSF however, it was a film about the individuals who have decided to serve with MSF. It investigates the reasons behind the decision to go, the pressure of having to practice medicine in extreme circumstances, and how these experiences affect each doctor...
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On Freedom

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, June 3, 2010, In : Responsibility 
I started reading Jean-Luc Nancy's The Experience of Freedom on the beach yesterday. Here are some thoughts I had on the nature of freedom...

Freedom is the actualization of potential. It is not only having the power to act, but the power to represent the self in these actions. Nancy quotes Kant on the subject, "[freedom is] the power to be by means of one's representations the cause of the reality of these same representations." I agree with this statement and believe that our work toward fre...
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Shed Identity for Being

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, May 29, 2010, In : Communication 
"Set out afresh the sum to which you attach value and of which you take account."

This quote is from The Thirtieth Year a short story by Ingborg Bachmann. I read it several years ago and remember being blown away and feeling much of what was in it, but now that I am in my thirtieth year I feel even closer to the meaning within Bachmann's words. I highly recommend the story, it is about a man in his thirtieth year that suddenly finds himself changed, he searches for something, something differe...
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Honest Expression

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, May 24, 2010, In : Community Arts 
I am currently co-facilitating a project with two amazing groups of people, the young people I work with in my program at the Youth Dreamers and a group of artists that manage and curate a green space on 33rd street here in Baltimore City. We had our first workshop last Thursday and I wasn't sure how it would go. Most planning had happened through e-mail and I didn't know what to expect when all the people came together face-to-face. My students were a little nervous, one of them sick, and we...
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"Turn Around, Turn Around, Turn Around

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, May 22, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
And you may come full circle and be new here again."

From I'm New Here by Gil Scott Heron on his first album in 15 years of the same title. This song came on my i-pod yesterday after a challenging day. A day of some disappointments, some bad surprises, and pure exhaustion. I've been doing much thinking recently about my next choices, where I am going to go and what I am going to do and I will admit, it has been stressful. I realized yesterday that I am at a place where I am new here. I have ch...
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Even Noam Chomsky Needs a Day Off and So Do I

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, May 20, 2010, In : Travel 
The following article about Noam Chomsky taking a day off to rest and relax is pretty amusing and made me consider my own life and whether I was doing enough to keep healthy and sane amidst all that needs to be done: http://www.theonion.com/articles/exhausted-noam-chomsky-just-going-to-try-and-enjoy,17404/

I also read it right before I actually took the first long weekend I have had in a while. Most of my weekends currently are one day. Getting away makes a huge difference. I spent the weekend...
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It All Depends on Who is in Charge of the Money

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, May 14, 2010, In : Community Arts 
Last year when I completed my second year in the Community Art Corps, an Americorps program that places artists in partnerships with community organizations and non-profits that is organized and run through Maryland Institute College of Art, I was interviewed as part of an evaluation of the program. Part of that interview has stuck with me, I cannot exactly remember what the question was that led up to the discussion, but Paolo, the interviewer and I got to talking about whether money is bett...
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Hope is not the Same as Delusional Optimism

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, May 11, 2010, In : Power 
I have work up in a show titled: Hope-A-Holic at the Snug Harbor Cultural Center, Staten Island, NY. The quote from the curator that keeps getting used in the press is about how artists use, "delusional optimism and senselessness [...] to sustain hope." I probably should have read the show description closer before I agreed to be in the show (I was excited to have my work in a gallery, it looks so much better there than in my closet) because there is something I find extremely depressing abou...
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On Updating My Facebook Status

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, May 1, 2010, In : Communication 
It is a beautiful and sunny Saturday and I am at work, at a desk, in front of a computer. I updated my Facebook status this morning to say where I was (Baltimore Clayworks) and that there was a new show in the gallery that people should come see. Since that time I have been tempted to update my status much more than usual. I want to write, "What a beautiful day" "I wish I was outside" "I need a cup of coffee" "I need a snack". Sometimes friends and I joke about how some people update their st...
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At Best, Our Work and Our Lives Result in the Creation of Joy

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, April 26, 2010, In : Community Arts 
There is a conversation in the community arts field about best practices. I have not really been involved in this until now, I am not sure I understood what "best practices" meant because it seems to me that every individual artists' best practice will be different, every community's best practice will not be the same, and that every new combination of people, resources, and place will foster a new kind of practice based on the circumstances. This weekend, however, I realized that there is so...
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What if Advertisements Didn't Make Us Fear Each Other?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, April 22, 2010, In : Entertainment 
I watch tv online so I have a different experience of commercials than the normal tv viewer.  I have found online ads focus on one product or theme for the duration of a show and that they are a little more intense than the quick succession of broadcast television ads. The most recent advertisement I have been bombarded with is one about HPV. It begins: What if this happens or that happens? "What if you meet someone? What if he likes you too? What if he gives you HPV? What if it never goes aw...
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Why I Want to Hunt

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, April 21, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Life requires that we are brutal, but only when necessary. Unnecessary brutality is damaging. That said, I have recently decided that I need to go hunting, that there is something in the experience of killing what I am going to eat that is beneficial and that I need to do. I question whether this act would be unnecessary brutality however, when in fact, I can go to any of the grocery stores near me and eat something that is already dead. I don't know if these dead things have been killed with...
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Accountability is the Base From which Real Social Change Becomes Possible

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, April 20, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Excellent article on www.counterpunch.org yesterday, April 19 The Diversity Dead End: Inclusiveness Without Accountability by Robert Jensen. Jensen's piece is a response to a comment he received after speaking at a diversity conference on racism and other illegitimate hierarchies. Someone asked him why he thought it was necessary to focus on the divisiveness of language instead of just accepting differences and asked if he wasn't being part of the problem instead of the solution of bringing p...
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What is How to Train Your Dragon Training Us For?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, April 6, 2010, In : Entertainment 
I saw How to Train Your Dragon in 3-D. I enjoyed it, I don't get to the movies often, had been hankering to see something, and after the recommendation of both friends and my brother, I decided to see Dragon. The movie tells the story of a young Viking named Hiccup who, regardless of how hard he tries cannot seem to live up to the Viking ways of being a big, strong, dragon slayer. People keep telling him he needs to change all of "this" and he responds with, "You just gestured to all of me!" ...
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Making Space for the Voice of Soldiers that Will not Return to War

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, April 6, 2010, In : Communication 
Last Saturday, the Civilian-Soldier Alliance  and Iraq Veterans Against the War organized an event called "Refusing to Fight: Iraq War Resisters Tell Their Stories" a talk and meet and greet with former soldiers turned anti-war activists at 2640, a cooperative events venue in Baltimore.  I did not have the pleasure of attending the event, but I heard that it was a success and believe it.  I did have the opportunity to meet two of the men who spoke at the event and even though we did not talk ...
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Children's Choices

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, April 2, 2010, In : Youth 
Children need choices. They need to be able to decide the things that impact their lives. From picking out their clothes in the morning, to where to go to school, to what they learn at that school, they need to be a part of the things that affect them. Of course they need guidance and adults who will encourage, model and advise on healthy, rational decisions. Of course they will make mistakes, we all make mistakes, it is how we learn. The problem of not allowing children to make decisions com...
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Help folks get free,

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, March 28, 2010, In : Responsibility 
but don't get in the cage in order to let them out.

Having made the decision to commit myself to working toward a more just and equitable world and a world in which I can achieve freedom, but not at the cost of others' freedom, I begin to realize the scope of how this commitment has changed my life. I realize the extent to which it causes me to reflect on my actions, both personal and professional. And also the extent to which it has made me realize, in working with people who have been oppres...
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Should We Censor Our Youth?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, March 27, 2010, In : Youth 
I have already written about YouthSpeaks Seattle and how impressed I was by the young performers. I was also impressed by the variety, depth, and intensity of their topics and with the fact that they spoke seriously and reflectively about subjects as varying as crushes, family, rape, sex, sickness, death, race, and culture. The organizers of the show seemed to trust the young people to perform what they felt, to write their experiences and truths, to express their emotions. The poems were raw...
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Do You Love Yourself?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, March 27, 2010, In : Love 
I ask this question to people I get involved with. Sometimes it surprises them, sometimes it perplexes them, but it is important. And having asked a few people now, gotten a variety of answers, and been asked it in return I realize that it is really about caring for oneself. Maybe care is a better way to describe it considering how "love" is characterized in this society. I have had a lucky span of time where I have been confident in myself and what I am doing. Of course this is not how I fee...
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Thoughts on Home

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 26, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
Adding to my post of two days ago The Spaces Must Change, I wanted to discuss home. Someone's home can be a warm, comfortable, inviting place to be, but only if it is livable. I love walking into a beautifully designed house with rich colors on the walls, comfy furniture, and great lighting, but if the house is not livable, if the objects are not meant to be used, worn, loved, then the house ceases to be homey. I think about my childhood. About parents with white carpets who filled with rage ...
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The First Day of my 30th Year OR Birthday Thanks

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, March 25, 2010, In : Love 
Today, on the day that I turn 29 and start my 30th year, I wanted to take this space as a place to honor and thank all of you that I have known in my life. You have been part of making me who I am and who I will be. It has been a pleasure to meet and know youall. Without your love and support I could not accomplish as much as I do. I hope that in the years that my life continues, we will continue to know each other and share in the joy of life.

Some words from Rumi I think are quite beautiful ...
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The Spaces Must Change

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, March 24, 2010, In : Community Arts 
As a community artist, I end up working in many different spaces - schools, clinics, youth centers, office, outdoors, etc. What has become clear through my work is how we can and must alter spaces to allow for more direct human interaction, open communication, and to create space for healing and love. The ordinary institutional spaces of society do not allow for this. I find schools especially oppressive. By moving desks, playing ice-breakers, and sitting in circles the classroom space begins...
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Tim Rollins and K.O.S. at the Frye

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, March 22, 2010, In : Community Arts 
After seeing the Tim Rollins and K.O.S. exhibit at the Frye Art Museum in Seattle, and seeing him speak there, I have noticed a difference in the way that I approach my programming with youth and how Rollins does. I still admire what he does and think that he is successful at it. The work that he and his students make is beautiful, the grown up young people he has worked with are successful and seem to be doing well, their artwork is housed in museum collections around the world, and I do thi...
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The Power of Words, the Voice of Youth

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, March 21, 2010, In : Youth 
This is my response to "Youthspeaks Seattle" the youth poetry grand slam finals held at the Moore Theater in Seattle on Friday, March 19th. I randomly happened past the Moore in my exploration of Seattle while there visiting and the marquis drew me in. I work with youth, I love poetry, and the Youth Dreamers and I just committed to co-hosting Wide Angle Youth Media's Poetry event on Tuesday, April 20th at Metro Gallery in Baltimore. So I went. I knew it would be good, but I was blown away by ...
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Seattle, First Impressions

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 19, 2010, In : Travel 
I started my trip to Seattle overtired (having awoken at 4am Eastern time), hungry (not having eaten since 4am, except some crackers on the plane), and having to cancel my rental car because they added on fees and charges that doubled the cost. My initial panic at being alone, in a strange city, and faced with a public transportation system whose map I didn't understand, I attribute to my tired, hungry, and cranky state. Once I decided just to get on the light rail and head toward downtown I ...
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Social Deviants as Heroes

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, March 16, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Society does not support its artists. This leads many to stress, poverty, and the outskirts of society, which then seems to have created the myth that genius comes with madness, excess, and oddity. This myth is perpetuated by popular culture and the art world. And artists that challenge this myth are few and far between. Too many happily accept that to be a genius they must remove themselves from others, make themselves different, special somehow. Instead of nurturing their ties with the worl...
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The Ease of Being Overstimulated

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 12, 2010, In : Responsibility 
I work mostly with middle schoolers. And I love my middle schoolers. For the most part I understand why they make the decisions they do, what drives their moods, and what things effect them. I remember very well being that age and being overly excited most of the time. A couple weeks ago one of my students said to me, "I'm shining Ms. Sarah, you can see that." And I could. A boy had just said something to her and she was visibly glowing. I asked her though - because at that point she was havi...
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On the Peace Corps Application Process

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 12, 2010, In : Personal Experience 
For anyone that is interested in applying to be a Peace Corps volunteer I thought it might be interesting and possibly helpful to write about my experience with the process. After having served two years as an Americorps member I was sure that I was ready to start my Peace Corps application. I went to an information session in June or July of last year and then got my application in by early August. The application itself is pretty standard, basic personal information, essays about why one wa...
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Confidence vs. Cockiness

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 12, 2010, In : Communication 
I was thinking about where the line between confidence and cockiness is drawn and here is what I have come up with. I am sure there are a myriad of other ways the distinction could be drawn, but this is a start. Confidence is having faith in oneself, but acknowledging the ability to make mistakes and admitting the mistakes when they occur. Cockiness is having unquestioned faith in oneself and the belief nothing one does is a mistake. A complete lack of confidence causes one to believe that ev...
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On Consumption

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, March 10, 2010, In : Education 
This post was inspired by a conversation I had last night about finding the things that we need to do in life, how education often confuses this process, and the inherent ability of people to learn. I was speaking with someone in the video game industry who will be coming to do a workshop with my youth program and we were talking about how he got into the field. He said that video games were one of those things that consumed him - that he wanted to know more about, wanted to know how they wor...
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Balancing Desires, Respecting Oneself and Others

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, March 9, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Why do so many people only think about themselves? I understand the importance of needing to know what one wants and being able to articulate it, otherwise it will never be had, but at the same time, when what one wants will have an effect on another person, the other person's desires and needs should be taken into account before one acts. Relationships must be reciprocal in order to be healthy. This has much to do with the Walmart Remington debate. If Walmart was a person (which actually as ...
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Should Walmart Come to Remington?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, March 8, 2010, In : Politics 
I would prefer that a Walmart not be built in Remington. There seem to me enough Walmart stores around Baltimore City, but I have a car and I can drive half hour in just about any direction and hit a Walmart. For people without a car however, I see the draw of having a Walmart within city limits. What is most important in the discussion about whether to open a Walmart on the corner of 25th and Howard is what the people that live there think about it, whether they have a place to voice their t...
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I Heart Smalltimore

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, March 6, 2010, In : Community Arts 
I didn't know how I would feel about moving to a small city. Having lived in New York for seven years, there was something that I enjoyed about the anonymity it allowed. And having lived in New York for seven years, there was something oppressive that happened when I began to know enough people to run into them randomly on the street or when I would recognized strangers, simply because our patterns overlapped. And yet here I am, in Baltimore, I have been here for just about three years now an...
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Access to Health Care (Or Lack of It) as Punishment and Torture

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, March 5, 2010,
I made a comparison in yesterdays post of lack of access to health care being akin to physical torture. After reading the following article this morning, I am convinced that health care is being used as a means of punishment and torture here within the borders of the United States and not just in the way that it coerces working people into a powerless position, but also the way it is being managed in our country's jails.

"The Terrible Case of Jamie Scott: How an $11 Robbery in Mississippi May ...
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Entering the Health Care Debate

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, March 4, 2010, In : Politics 
I am one of those people who believes that access to health care is a human right and that everyone should be able to choose a doctor, see them when they want, and go to the hospital during emergencies without having the anxiety of massive medical bills upon discharge. I was an Americorps member for the last two years and at the end of my term became self-employed. My father categorizes me as one of those people who choose not to have health care. I feel that was not the choice I made, if giv...
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The Cultural Significance of Naming

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, March 3, 2010,
In the United States the enormous cultural production industry often times makes it difficult for individuals to find space to create true culture. Culture is something that comes from people, not from industry, and not from mass production. One of the few spaces I see in which people have the ability to and are using this ability to create culture is in naming. I had a discussion while home over the holidays about this. It started with one of those studies about how people with names like Jo...
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The Illusion of Love in Popular Culture

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, March 2, 2010, In : Love 
I watched the finale of The Bachelor last night. Having viewed this prime time drama, I am left feeling that television is perpetuating a dangerous view of what love is and should be. I am aware of the cliches that have been ingrained in me by years of consuming tv romance. I understand that love is something deeper and more complex than what tv relationships generally illustrate, but I do on occasion find myself affected by the constant barrage of images of people "falling in love". The inte...
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The Key to Successful Community Arts Programming: Support

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, March 1, 2010, In : Community Arts 
Over the last three years, working as a community artist in Baltimore, it has become increasingly clear to me that one of the most important components of a successful community arts project is support. Going beyond the obvious need for monetary support, one must also have the investment of the partnering organizations, members of the community, and volunteers. I have learned the hard way how to recognize when this support may or may not be present. I now realize in hindsight that there were ...
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Dancing as an Act of Love

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, February 28, 2010, In : Love 
Dancing is a way to have voice. A way to express who and what we are and to embody all the joy and feeling of life. When people are fully present in the moment, in the music, in the song, it is not only a beautiful thing to witness, but also to experience. I danced last night at the Ottobar's Prince vs. Madonna vs. Michael Jackson Dance Party and there was a really great feel there. It was not the usual meat market bars tend to be, people were there to dance. And we did. I didn't used to danc...
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Who Will Hold Us Accountable?

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, February 26, 2010, In : Responsibility 
There was an article on counterpunch yesterday about prosecuting George W. Bush for war crimes. The focus of the article was Charlotte Dennett and Vincent Bugliosi. Dennett who ran for attorney general in Vermont in 2008 made a campaign pledge to appoint Vincent Bugliosi as a special prosecutor to seek a murder indictment against George W. Bush for the deaths of U.S. soldiers in Iraq. Dennett did not get elected, but she and Bugliosi are continuing to work to hold the former president account...
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Compulsive Education is Not the Same as Learning

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, February 25, 2010, In : Education 
How and what we learn has nothing has nothing to do with school. Learning is about choice. People are naturally curious and will seek out the things that they need and want to know. If allowed to follow these paths, their education will be rich and meaningful. Unfortunately, very few are able to learn in this way. Compulsive schooling requires that students learn what is in the curriculum, whether or not it applies to their lives. It punishes creativity and often critical thinking (students t...
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On the Language of Openness

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, February 24, 2010, In : Communication 
Why is it so easy to have an open and honest discussion with some people and so hard with others? I think it is a matter of questions. Whether or not people are comfortable answering them and able to ask them will either make or break a conversation. I was not always able to answer questions. One of my mentors in grad school once asked me what I wanted, and I was stuck, I could not come up with anything. I realized that questions made me extremely uncomfortable so I started a project called A...
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Limitations and Boundaries

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, February 22, 2010, In : Communication 

"Limitation is willful and childish" I believe this, but I also believe in boundaries.  What is the difference between limits and boundaries? Limits are something one cannot exceed or pass, a restriction. Boundaries are something that mark a limit, but can be expanded, redrawn, recreated. I limited myself as a young person, often defining myself in negatives. I did not eat meat, I did not drink, I did not do drugs, I did not like this or that, I would never do this or that. All these things I...

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That I Don't Know What

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, February 20, 2010, In : Love 
What is it? That je ne sais quoi. That attraction. That magnetism. That indescribable something that some people have. It is not just a physical attraction. It is something more, something deeper. Something that from within a person, draws me toward them. Something that makes me want to be near them. Something that makes me forget myself. Something that is beautiful, joyous, and magic. It is magic. It is a magic that one can feel, an electricity, a chemistry. It is something that doesn't happ...
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Creating the Feeling of Home: The Example of the Youth Dreamers

Posted by Sarah McCann on Saturday, February 20, 2010, In : Community Arts 
I have had the immeasurable pleasure of working for the last two years with the Stadium School Youth Dreamers, a non-profit organization dedicated to decreasing the amount of violence youth are exposed to after school by opening a youth-run youth center. There is something incredible that is happening at this organization. The young people involved and their adult allies are some of the most amazing people that I have met in my life. The environment that teacher/director Kristina Berdan creat...
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The Question of Addiction

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, February 18, 2010, In : Responsibility 
I am again addicted to caffeine. I had kicked it and then during a trip to New York, I somehow fell into old habits again. I have only been drinking a half-caffeinated cup of coffee a day, but now I need it. Last week I didn't. Addictions are an interesting phenomenon. I am also currently addicted to sugar. I am glad I have never been addicted to anything stronger because I have a hard enough time with coffee and sweets. My lifestyle at the moment does not really support an addictionless life...
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Relational Power

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, February 18, 2010, In : Power 
Each relationship we enter into whether it be through work, a romantic involvement, a friendship or merely a conversation with the cashier at the coffee shop is a delicately balanced power dynamic. The power involved in any exchange is often masked and not addressed. Maybe it is too complex to understand, especially in passing moments, but when a relationship is something extended, something that will continue over a period of time, it helps to address how power is being used between parties,...
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No Woman Has Written Enough

Posted by Sarah McCann on Wednesday, February 17, 2010, In : Communication 
I wrote down the title to today's post while reading Remembered Rapture by bell hooks. Specifically an essay entitled "A Body of Work: Women Labor with Words." hooks makes the case that there are not nearly enough black women writers being published today, especially those writing outside of accepted narrative norms. And that those who do get published are often met with extremely harsh criticism, especially from other women. She says, "We write to leave legacies for the future." She addresse...
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Thoughts on Love

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, February 16, 2010, In : Love 
I am in love, but at this moment in time not with anyone in particular. It is funny to me that I can feel this way without any romantic entanglement. It is something that goes against all the media propaganda on romantic love that encourages the idea that a person cannot be whole without finding that special someone that completes them. I think being complete is really being self-actualized, not meeting prince charming. I visited the National Museum of the American Indian in DC last summer an...

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Not Empowerment, Rather Acknowledgment

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, February 15, 2010, In : Community Arts 
Empowerment is often used to describe what one does when working with people of less privilege than oneself. I find this problematic. People do not have to be "empowered", people already have the power that they need to act within them. Acknowledgment of this power is what is necessary. Another person cannot force this onto someone else. What one can do is set up circumstances that make it easier. That is why art-making is such an important part of this process. When a person creates somethin...
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Defining Discipline

Posted by Sarah McCann on Friday, February 12, 2010, In : Responsibility 
Thank you Carl for responding to yesterday's entry with the following quote. I think it is excellent and inspired my topic for today.
 
"The word warrior, by itself, may mean a creator of war or a warmonger, but the warriors of Shambhala are the opposite. The Shambhala warrior does not create war, at all, but is somebody who creates peace. The warriors of Shambhala are those who are interested in subjugating their own desires for war and for aggression. The quality of sadness is precisely the h...

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Seeing Individual Truths Based on Existence

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, February 11, 2010, In : Communication 
I read sections of Sartre's Being and Nothingness many years ago. Even though the text is very heavy reading, I really enjoyed the idea that we do not address other people as human until we are aware of their gaze and are able to acknowledge that gaze as being the center of a point of view and hence the fact that our point of view is not the center of the universe. I did not read the whole text so Sartre may eventually get to the point that I am about to make, but I think it is not just the g...
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The Aggression of the Stare

Posted by Sarah McCann on Thursday, February 11, 2010, In : Communication 
I do on occasion get stared at. I cannot speak on the experience of men, maybe this happens to them too, but as a woman it is extremely uncomfortable. When I was younger it made me self-conscious and often angry, especially when it was a man doing the staring. For a long time I couldn't explain exactly why this action affected me to the extent that it did. Recently I realized it is because staring is incredibly aggressive. When looking at someone, but offering no opening for reciprocal commun...
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Notes, Thoughts, and Quotes While Reading Tim Rollins + K.O.S.

Posted by Sarah McCann on Tuesday, February 9, 2010, In : Community Arts 
In reading about Tim Rollins and K.O.S. I am inspired. His approach to creation and education is akin to my own. I firmly believe that everyone has a great creative potential within themselves, and that when given the opportunity to follow their individual path, will contribute great things to the world. Teachers are key in either fostering the growth of this creativity or crushing it. Unfortunately, as the education system currently exists in the United States, students are being crushed mor...
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The Importance of Being Acknowledged

Posted by Sarah McCann on Monday, February 8, 2010, In : Communication 
Last week I was ignored. Someone that I once knew went out of their way not to acknowledge me. It hurt. It made me feel awful. And in that moment it became absolutely clear to me why it is so important to address everyone that I come into contact with. Why in my classes it is necessary to make sure I say hello to every student individually. Why in my community work I must introduce myself to every community member that might walk by, stop in or work at the facility I am at. Not being acknowle...
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An Argument is Not a Dialogue

Posted by Sarah McCann on Sunday, February 7, 2010, In : Communication 
When out for a drink the other night, I ended up speaking with a man who I did not see eye to eye with. There is nothing wrong with this and I happen to enjoy interacting with people that have different beliefs from my own. I usually learn something and have an interesting time. This night however, something was off. In reviewing all of my work and writing for this website it became very clear to me what it was. I did not have a discussion with this man, I ended up in an argument and that arg...
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